The message from those closest to me lately has been "don't complain" "learn some humility, you are full of yourself" and "you are undeserving, and ungrateful"
I know that at my worst, and sometimes even at my best I can be egotistical..but what does it mean to be confident, and what does it mean to be full of yourself? It seems most of the time that even my closest family/friends could careless about what happens with me so that leaves it up to me to be happy with my accomplishments..
The last three years I have been so beaten down to the ground, a little encouragement would be so helpful to get me going again. is that bad to want that?
I recently read a book that talked about doing things inspite of others and what life might hand you. 'People will bring you down, but do good anyways' etc. etc. Easier said then done.
Perhaps if I just gave up at accomplishing what I have set out to do, I would get things handed to me...
What a frustrating day. I am trying to keep myself from lashing out, but I feel like if I don't say something it will get bottled up and continue to grow inside me.
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