Okay so I talked about it, thought about it...and with my best effort, unplanned to start this blog! Why have I started this blog? Well, this is my first summer since high school where I haven't had my entire life planned out, and I decided to document it the momentous occasion.
Ever since I can remember, way back in elementary school perhaps, I have had a plan. I would obsess over what I was going to do the next day, the day after that, the week after the that, the year after that. I would try and envision my future and plan it all out so my life was incredibly predictable. I knew I wanted to be in music, I knew that I would go to University, that I would get at least 2 degrees and that I would work all through my education.
But somewhere along the way things changed. I did not predict I would leave my second school, that I would leave the country to finish school and return jobless and more or less homeless. It is a unique position to be in right now. I have no financial obligations other then a student loan that will eventually come due when I finally finish my program. I, for the moment, don't have a job and have no prospects unless I manage to snag an internship.
I did something very irresponsible (to me anyways) and when my semester finished I packed a bag and went to Vegas for 5 days to just have fun. I felt very anxious about the whole idea. I left my internship stuff up in the air, I left with no job lined up, and not a lot of money in my account. I guess I did not realize how much I dwell on money. (more on that later) But I managed to get there all in one piece and have a blast. Perhaps one thing I may learn from this is how to live in the moment.. But I'm skeptical.
So here it is. first blog of my 'unplanned' life.
Ever since I can remember, way back in elementary school perhaps, I have had a plan. I would obsess over what I was going to do the next day, the day after that, the week after the that, the year after that. I would try and envision my future and plan it all out so my life was incredibly predictable. I knew I wanted to be in music, I knew that I would go to University, that I would get at least 2 degrees and that I would work all through my education.
But somewhere along the way things changed. I did not predict I would leave my second school, that I would leave the country to finish school and return jobless and more or less homeless. It is a unique position to be in right now. I have no financial obligations other then a student loan that will eventually come due when I finally finish my program. I, for the moment, don't have a job and have no prospects unless I manage to snag an internship.
I did something very irresponsible (to me anyways) and when my semester finished I packed a bag and went to Vegas for 5 days to just have fun. I felt very anxious about the whole idea. I left my internship stuff up in the air, I left with no job lined up, and not a lot of money in my account. I guess I did not realize how much I dwell on money. (more on that later) But I managed to get there all in one piece and have a blast. Perhaps one thing I may learn from this is how to live in the moment.. But I'm skeptical.
So here it is. first blog of my 'unplanned' life.
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